Loneliness
You don't have to be alone. No, you don't. You don't have to sit there in the empty living room full of untouched furniture, well-stocked DVDs accompanied by academic books and novels read at leisure. You don't have to progress to your room, leaving the door open, just in case someone calls your name from across town to invite you over for a board game and a few laughs because you're just that hopeful. You don't have to walk around your apartment complex or down the street from your house with lights overhead, dogs barking and random strangers eager to get somewhere away from where they were before you decided to step outside.
You don't have to text the exes you have cursed and disregarded with enough mental blockage to convince yourself they never existed and call family you haven't spoken to since last Thanksgiving and you're currently two days away from June .You don't have to post subliminal ads on Facebook, asking individuals to post replies to initiate conversations via Facebook Messenger, or post a selfie on Instagram with some hash-tag reflecting your current condition of isolation, seeking for a counterpart to share the moment. You don't have to commute to Denny's after your night shift, choosing to eat in a booth apposed to sitting at the bar, creating a physical representation of your personal choice to eat alone when in actuality, you feel that you have no other alternative.
No, you don't have to be alone. You can surround yourself with people who may or may not share your interest and morals. You can attend a party where everybody's drinking something except the same vibe. You can do many things to prevent yourself from being surrounded by nothing but space, room noise, and uncontrollable sighs so loud that it drowns out the air condition unit kicking on outside, thirty feet away from your window. I suggest that if you are alone, hone it. Embrace it like an infant and nourish it. Open a journal and start writing. Open a book and engage in the plot until someone has to physically remove you from hanging on to the narrator's every word. Read the Bible. Yes, I know that may not sound fun for a Friday or Saturday night, but if you're seeking answers as to why you are in the state you're in, God has the answer. It could be that He's teaching you how to grow and accept your own company opposed to those who can care less if you're depressed or ill. Turn on some music and start cleaning.
Start cutting out the coupons you've been trying to tend to for the last few days. Complete a homework assignment or a few, depending on how far ahead you wish to get or how far behind you prefer not to be. Catch up on Netflix. While you're at it, or before the movie or television series starts, pop some popcorn. Grab an apple, orange, sandwich, or something small and sweet. Enjoy this time so that when somebody does come alone and they choose not to stay, whether a friend or significant other, you'll have an alternative--yourself.
Never assume that God has given you a dull personality. You are bolt of lighting. All you have to do is find your mason jar, trap your self in it before sealing the top and watch yourself bounce around with unrelenting life, eager to energize anything you decide to dabble in. This doesn't mean that you're removed from the world or any form of human contact. It means that even though you're isolated, you're still vigorous, vibrant and full of enough spirit to share with many others if they're willing to accept you, and if they don't, it's their lost because who wouldn't want lighting in a bottle? Enjoy others. Enjoy God. Most importantly, enjoy yourself.
You don't have to text the exes you have cursed and disregarded with enough mental blockage to convince yourself they never existed and call family you haven't spoken to since last Thanksgiving and you're currently two days away from June .You don't have to post subliminal ads on Facebook, asking individuals to post replies to initiate conversations via Facebook Messenger, or post a selfie on Instagram with some hash-tag reflecting your current condition of isolation, seeking for a counterpart to share the moment. You don't have to commute to Denny's after your night shift, choosing to eat in a booth apposed to sitting at the bar, creating a physical representation of your personal choice to eat alone when in actuality, you feel that you have no other alternative.
No, you don't have to be alone. You can surround yourself with people who may or may not share your interest and morals. You can attend a party where everybody's drinking something except the same vibe. You can do many things to prevent yourself from being surrounded by nothing but space, room noise, and uncontrollable sighs so loud that it drowns out the air condition unit kicking on outside, thirty feet away from your window. I suggest that if you are alone, hone it. Embrace it like an infant and nourish it. Open a journal and start writing. Open a book and engage in the plot until someone has to physically remove you from hanging on to the narrator's every word. Read the Bible. Yes, I know that may not sound fun for a Friday or Saturday night, but if you're seeking answers as to why you are in the state you're in, God has the answer. It could be that He's teaching you how to grow and accept your own company opposed to those who can care less if you're depressed or ill. Turn on some music and start cleaning.
Start cutting out the coupons you've been trying to tend to for the last few days. Complete a homework assignment or a few, depending on how far ahead you wish to get or how far behind you prefer not to be. Catch up on Netflix. While you're at it, or before the movie or television series starts, pop some popcorn. Grab an apple, orange, sandwich, or something small and sweet. Enjoy this time so that when somebody does come alone and they choose not to stay, whether a friend or significant other, you'll have an alternative--yourself.
Never assume that God has given you a dull personality. You are bolt of lighting. All you have to do is find your mason jar, trap your self in it before sealing the top and watch yourself bounce around with unrelenting life, eager to energize anything you decide to dabble in. This doesn't mean that you're removed from the world or any form of human contact. It means that even though you're isolated, you're still vigorous, vibrant and full of enough spirit to share with many others if they're willing to accept you, and if they don't, it's their lost because who wouldn't want lighting in a bottle? Enjoy others. Enjoy God. Most importantly, enjoy yourself.
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