Finding Your Sappy Place
Where do you go...when you don't want any light? Is there a mental place where you can shut the blinds, lock the doors, choose a corner and curl into it? There usually is, especially after a serious case of self-disappointment. It's that place where you can lose an appetite, deny friends access into your bubble, and lose every desire to make yourself happy. We know that place too well. When we were kids, it was a place where even our imaginary friends were excluded. It's where our parents didn't get along or decide to end their marriage. That place was cold, sterile, empty. There were times where we didn't want God knocking to come in, let alone anyone that we loved. Were you ever told that it was okay to be there? If not, then today you learn that it is. It's cool to disregard the important factors of living. The problem occurs when you decide to stay. You start paying rent opposed to charging per night like a room at Red Roof Inn. That place is void of anything because it's not where you're meant to resign.
Now days, we don't appear to have time to visit this dark space. We're so busy trying to pacify the hurt with technology, substance, and unfortunately, people. There's no reprieve in between. Light appears to pierce our beings opposed to provide energy. Receiving anything good isn't number one on our spiritual grocery list. It should be, but we wish to soak or shower in the pain. We want to feel it until we become numb. That place is beginning to house several pairs of our shoes, clothing, food, and a growing number of amenities. We return so often, that it's becoming a psychological condo we occupy several times during every season. We even have neighbors--people that we drag into the mess. What will it take for you to find permanence elsewhere and not in your sappy place? Well, you have to develop a continuation during your preventive stage opposed to your coping stage.
Strive to do whatever it takes to keep you from pulling out those keys and opening the door to somewhere you rather visit less than lodge in excessively. If you're bored, change your routine. If work is giving you stress, find another one. If you're dating someone that pulls you down and not raise you up, leave! You deserve to be well. There's no regrouping in your sappy place. There is great drainage instead, leaving you more empty than you were when you entered. I've been there...many times, even recently. I know how it feels to melt into depression, become comfortable with internal discomfort. I've shoved people out, including my fiancé during the time she was just my girlfriend. This place is like a timeout you get when you're bad in pre-school. The goal isn't to keep you there, but have you stand/sit long enough to develop that want to be removed.
The devil wants you in the dark so that you can't see what he's doing. As long as we're alive, he renews his contract every year. He will not retire. Neither should you. You're going to visit that place again, maybe sooner than you think. An emotional comet is going to breech your atmosphere. You're going to assume that it will wipe out your plans. Once it hits, waves will rise and your world might break, but don't expect it's creator to not know how to fix it. Don't expect He who provides light to abandon you where you befriend darkness. He loves you too much to leave you in your sappy place. It's okay to mourn, sink into fear, and hide from goodness. What's not acceptable is choosing to anchor where you fall. You're too strong for that. If you weren't, there wouldn't be room for redemption.
Now days, we don't appear to have time to visit this dark space. We're so busy trying to pacify the hurt with technology, substance, and unfortunately, people. There's no reprieve in between. Light appears to pierce our beings opposed to provide energy. Receiving anything good isn't number one on our spiritual grocery list. It should be, but we wish to soak or shower in the pain. We want to feel it until we become numb. That place is beginning to house several pairs of our shoes, clothing, food, and a growing number of amenities. We return so often, that it's becoming a psychological condo we occupy several times during every season. We even have neighbors--people that we drag into the mess. What will it take for you to find permanence elsewhere and not in your sappy place? Well, you have to develop a continuation during your preventive stage opposed to your coping stage.
Strive to do whatever it takes to keep you from pulling out those keys and opening the door to somewhere you rather visit less than lodge in excessively. If you're bored, change your routine. If work is giving you stress, find another one. If you're dating someone that pulls you down and not raise you up, leave! You deserve to be well. There's no regrouping in your sappy place. There is great drainage instead, leaving you more empty than you were when you entered. I've been there...many times, even recently. I know how it feels to melt into depression, become comfortable with internal discomfort. I've shoved people out, including my fiancé during the time she was just my girlfriend. This place is like a timeout you get when you're bad in pre-school. The goal isn't to keep you there, but have you stand/sit long enough to develop that want to be removed.
The devil wants you in the dark so that you can't see what he's doing. As long as we're alive, he renews his contract every year. He will not retire. Neither should you. You're going to visit that place again, maybe sooner than you think. An emotional comet is going to breech your atmosphere. You're going to assume that it will wipe out your plans. Once it hits, waves will rise and your world might break, but don't expect it's creator to not know how to fix it. Don't expect He who provides light to abandon you where you befriend darkness. He loves you too much to leave you in your sappy place. It's okay to mourn, sink into fear, and hide from goodness. What's not acceptable is choosing to anchor where you fall. You're too strong for that. If you weren't, there wouldn't be room for redemption.
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